Critical Mass

Have you ever had so much crap happening in your life that when you sit down to spill it all out, you get writer’s block? It’s like my creativity just reached critical mass. Okay. Little bits about each thing.
I got the GE job. THEN they tell me it’s in Calgary. INFORMATION I COULD HAVE USED BEFORE I GAVE YOU FOUR HOURS OF MY SATURDAY MORNING DURING EXAM WEEK, YOU FUCKERS. Ahem. Moving on.
You know that feeling of impending doom? You know, that cold feeling that kinda starts in your gut and spreads over your appendages? I get that every time I think about upcoming exams. Then I feel a panic attack coming on, and just go do something else that doesn’t involve books.
I have a new group. A new “family” according to Vdot. It’s pretty cool…I really enjoy hanging out with every single one of these people, even though I feel pretty damn left out of the loop because I live so far away. (And this weird sexual tension thing that seems to be arising as of late. Or may be a figment of my imagination. See, that’s my main problem. I can’t read social situations that have attraction or sexual tension in them. At all. Really, someone has to write me a map or dialogue or something before I can catch on to an attraction between two people. It’s kind of embarrassing, really.). But in any case, I have finally found the niche that I belong to in post-secondary, and I found it among these friends. It’s because of these people that I’m able to deal with the bullshit that certain people are handing to me right now.
Now, this creates a problem. A loyalty problem. See, I don’t have a favorite, and I just don’t think I can. This entire section is directed to CT. Baby, although I’ve found Vdot and she’s a close girlfriend, nobody could ever replace you. I’ve already matriculated one “outsider” into meeting these people, and trust me when I say, they are going to love you. They’re like that. Plus, how could they not?
Anyway. It’s late, and I have reading that seriously has to be done *there’s that feeling again*. Talk to y’all later.

-K

Quote du jour

“To fall in lust not love, ain’t no sin at all…”
-Steven Tyler